Just as I arrived at work this morning, I FINALLY got the CT scan results from my test on Friday. Good news, it isn't anything life-threatening; bad news, there is no good way to fix the abdominal pain I have been experiencing on-and-off for the past two weeks.
Due multiple surgeries to remove infection from my abdomen over six years ago, I now have extensive adhesions. Adhesions are fibrous tissue that connect muscles and organs in ways they are not supposed to be connected. The only treatment is surgery, but that can cause further adhesions in the future. If you or someone you love has endometriosis, then you may know what I'm talking about.
I will be honest and say that this news left me frustrated and sad because in a new way, I will never be entirely rid of the side effects of the damage done to me during a surgery six and a half years ago. However, God has a plan. Now don't get me wrong, I knew this but was allowing myself a day to be sad.
One of my co-workers said he would be praying for me as I awaited the test results. Due to a weird schedule today, I didn't get to speak to him until this afternoon. He and a student listened to what I had learned. They seemed to agree it sucked, but they didn't stop there. They reminded me that I can live in defeat that I am sick, or I can decide to be healthy. Now don't get me wrong, these adhesions are unlikely to just disappear (unless God should choose to make that happen); however, I can decide to not let the adhesions decide how I live my life.
Some of my medical issues will never change. I will have to live with them as long as I am here on Earth. This is still my life though. It may not have been the one I would have chosen, but God is going to use me right where I am. So thanks to these guys, I have decided that I am going to do my best to live healthy. Recently, Husband and I have been working to change our diet . . . I am going to continue to do that. My next step is finding a better balance in my life. I have always been a bad steward of my physical body and that ends now.
I'm not sure how all of this is going to look in my life, but I do know that I refuse to live sick for the rest of my life. I may have chronic illness, but I can choose to live life to the best of my ability. That choice starts today.